Ya ain't so hot yourself

Alice Practice

Wow.
In comparison to you I really am utter crock.
Everytime I see you it reiterates the feeling that what you said was a joke, a tease. How could it be true? I'd love confirmation, but not to go through this wave of confusion again.

Ignorance strikes again

This eve I found myself on the verge of a facebook fight. I admit it was pretty thrilling, even if it never eventuated. The topic was vegetarian and vegan lifestyles and the apparent 'types' of people who live them. The initial source of the discussion if you can call it that was a status a friend posted about signing up to greenpeace yet still being a meat eater. I jokingly suggested she just stop as a solution to what she questioned as being a contradictory action.

A day later, things had developed. Oh, the people! How they got involved! What I personally read them to be saying was that vegetarians, vegans and people from greenpeace are crazy whereasssss what I think they really mean to say is that animal liberationists and environmentalists are passionate people who will do their best to try to show why they believe what they believe to be true and beneficial to their cause. Not every vegetarian or vegan has an interest in animal lib. Some have medical conditions or a dislike for the taste of meat. Similarly, I wouldn't claim that every environmentalist is necessarily into animal liberation. They are connected in my mind but not in everyone else's.
I found these people to be ignorant and defensive. Once they come up against something they have little knowledge of, or perhaps they have grown up in an environment of predjudice, they attack that thing instead of trying to understand it. I think people are scared of what they don't know. Trying to know could require such an output of themselves that they turn on the defensive because it is easy and safe. Of course this is part of the human condition, but that doesn't validate it to me. Being an ignorant coward is nothing to admire or to be desired and a closed mind is unhealthy.

simple and complex

Life must be a blend and flow of the two. To be exclusively either could prove meaningless and exhausting.
Sometimes I want everything to mean nothing and to just be. Just occur because it does and result in whatever and never try to show me anything but raw and base fact.
At other times I want to read into everything that I say and do, everything that is presented to me and that I witness. I want what they said to me to carry a special meaning that I must discover and it will always be exactly what they wanted me to know and I will reply. At this point, when I reply, I think in my mind it is again simple. Yes. For until it ends.
Until someone cares little enough or enough to send me such things I will continue to create them all by myself and they will cloud my judgement and influence my decisions to an unadvised extent.

Even when they're dead and gone

Barely respecting the dead

we skirt the graves

due to a fear of something we were told once,

long ago, repeated

On a happy note, Kid Sam with 'Down to the Cemetery' whom I failed to see at Laneway

Three different things, maybe four.

I have been leaving an article about an animal liberationist and a sanctuary farm strategically around my house in the hope that my parents will read it and maybe gain something useful from it seeing as they tend to ignore me when I try to discuss my beliefs. Y'all don't know what it's like, being male, middle class and white.

Sometimes (often, very very often) I really feel that it would be so much better if I stayed outside and didn't interact with any other beings. I don't think I am very adept at thinking for myself when in the presence of anyone at all and I am terrible at saying no when it isn't blindingly obvious that it's a bad thing. Everything that has happened makes me feel like I should be in year 9. It could not sound much worse than that. Why could love not sustain me?

Paranoid again. I do think I miss you.

Only for the warm fuzzy times okay? Yes. I promise. To someone else! For someone else. Of someone else? No. Seriously though. That was uncool in extreme proportions. How did I not sort of learn through observation from the night before?

I did however ride my bicyclette. Now that was awesome.

Shirts! Shirts shirts shirts!

I have an extreeeeeeme craving for buying district lines shirts of my favourite youtubers. It's annoying though because I live by a very general rule of a) not buying clothing new and b) not buying (trust issues) things off the internet. Everything is so expensive to me!

In particular I would absolutely love the swift karate chop 'what did we learn' shirt and a dudeneedaeaseonup 'cloudy thoughts' shirt, definately in grey. I wish the swifty shirt wasn't a v neck... the only v neck I own and therefore assume I can wear is my Cure shirt but it's so awesome that you forget it's a v neck (well at least that is my thought process on the matter). Anyway check out their stuff, and their channels. Hopefully all links work!

dudeneedaeaseonup
http://www.districtlines.com/dudeneedaeaseonup
http://www.youtube.com/dudeneedaeaseonup

annnd swift karate chop aka matthew brian brown
http://www.districtlines.com/Matthew-Brown-and-Swift-Karate-Chop
http://www.youtube.com/user/swiftkaratechop

welcome home

my entire body aches and i have nothing to say


thanks for everything, holiday

you. have. got. to . be. kidding

he's perfect.
she's very cool.
I never made the connection. no way.
yes, I realise there was no chance at all in any way, but I still reserve my right to be so very disappointed.
all I can hope is that it is very new. or they were friends for ages. something to stupidly hold onto. idiot.
ps. i have de brows and you don't?? there's summit

Sense made

Well now.
Learning new information,
It can be simultaneously liberating and crushing.
Sometimes I just don't want to know but with that knowledge, I am so clearly better off.
How is it always the same informer too? Yet... There are other things being held back.
Sick of seconds, this is the benefit of independence. We all know it would never have been me.
I'll just go get my own and you can all piss off.

This Sex Which Is Not One.

Within the vast amounts of information I am trying to sort through for this essay, I rediscovered Luce Iragaray. She has this to say about woman and her pleasure, how it differs from man's in the masculine normalised society we live in;

"As for woman, she touches herself in and of herself without any need for mediation, and before there is any way to distinguish between activity from passivity. Woman "touches herself" all the time, and moreover no one can forbid her to do so, for her genitals are formed of two lips in continuous contact. Thus, within herself, she is already two-but not divisible into one(s)-that caress each other."

Just.. writing essays...

Just this morning I started watching The Inbetweeners. Probably not the best time to get hooked on yet another british comedy but... it was a pleasing distraction. Not yet sure if I can deal with all the isms within though.














At least things can only get better. Or they could just stay the same.... Or get worse

Ehh

Cold weather + Arthritis = Feck I need to walk around.

And... just... I don't know. Yet again. How oft' shall I turn away at the signpost?

www.copenhagenstreetstyle.dk

About you.

I am getting to that point. Paranoia (not really... but really) sets in and every unpredictable thing makes me nervous. It's clearly all about me, right? Wrong. It never is. Then I feel worse for even thinking for that fleeting moment that it could be about me. Even this post has become about me to a greater extend than I expected it to. I suppose... since it is my life... it has to be about me in some way. I don't want it to be though. I want it to be about everybody else, but I want to be part of their life because my life is all about their life. I think I just said some really straightforward stuff and for no purpose. Or, if there were purpose, it was to sort out my mind. Yeah okay shuddup.

Midnight Man

It catches up with you y'know.

These days I look at the beauty of things, simple things like the sky, trees, and I think "you're too ugly to be here"

I don't know how I became like this.

friends

hmmmcha.
i guess i've done it to him though.
must. stop.

Have ya ever?

went to a thing with some people and came away with a particular opinion on someone. i thought they were really nice and sweet and i was happy i'd met them. then someone i trust told me what they thought about new-person and it was at odds with my thoughts. now i am confused. later i figured that seeing as i would probably never see them again, i should retain my own view on them because it doesn't really matter and i would rather a good memory over having to question what happened. this is rather ambiguous... ohwells

rarararararrrr

I'm all about you. You're all about me. We're all about eachother

I want that.

I was really afraid I may have ruined things againnnnn but so far, no. Not so much a reflection on me as it is on them though I think. We shall see we shall indeed see. There seems like there is a lot ahead but I want to sort through it.

Oh and why don't you like love songs? If that is what they're writing about it's in their life. Be happy for them and learn from them. You can do whatever you want with information once you have it in order to further yourself inside.

Thanks Peter, Bjorn & John

Alien Like You

Oh Being Erica, how I love you. Making a show in order to get across life lessons by having the main character learn from her mistakes in therapy? Straight to the point and brilliant. I watched the season 2 final this morning and this song still makes me happy. There's also a longer version by the Pigott brothers which is possibly better just as a song. Apparently there's a third season and Kai is in it again, sahhh exciting!

it's horrible

4 minutes in and you're already judging

based on their name

based on their clothes

based on whatever irrelevant thing

you deem relevant